I have been inspired by friends to actually attempt to blog again. Much has happened in my life in the past few weeks to throw me into turmoil, but I find that I do not want to talk about it today. I am trying to move on with my life. I am trying to just show up and get through the day.
So, here I am, showing up. Trying to be normal. What is normal?
My daughters make me laugh, especially the three year old daughter. She has taught my baby how to scowl. Really, we don’t like it, but my baby! She scowls then laughs because that is what her older sister does. I love their smiles way more, so I instructed my older kids to not respond at all when the baby scowls. So far, it isn’t working because the baby thinks it is funny.
I used to hide their names from this blog. I have other friends that use their kids names and I find that I like it better than hiding them. Old habits die hard I guess because I am still referring to them as “the three year old” or “my baby” instead of Melody and Lily. There, I did it. I put their names in there. I am moving on.
What a lame post. But I guess it is, at least, a post. Hello world, I am grieving but I am also trying to go on living. My brother would want that.
